Here we Are Again....

Feeling self conscious again. I mean I look fabulous. Right? Not trying to second guess myself but Im feeling a little....thick. Yeah. So I ran the Tough Mudder 2 weeks ago, Im fucking awesome. Let em just throw that out there. I really am. Thick and awesome. I couldn't post half the pictures because if I was squatting, bent over and even just standing my stomach stuck out like I was 6 months pregnant. Not terribly attractive. There were some other more flattering shots.

Yeah fuck the Everest Obstacle

Ok, so Mark went to the Doctors. His cholesterol and triglycerides arent horrible, but they arent good. So we both need to eat healthier, exercise more and lose fat. I know Ive said it 100 times.

So here we go again. Hopefully not yo-yoing again. Please?

So tonight we are going shopping, his Dr recommended shopping on the outside walls of the store, where the HEALTHY non processed foods are. Ok, sounds easy enough. I went to my fit food's website. And Im kinda stealing their ideas. Prepackage foods for meals, lots of veggies, less sugar, more flavors/spices and tons of tupperware. Right? Easy enough?

Ill take pictures and mention what all I put in the containers. Maybe. Well will need lunch/dinner and snacks, breakfast. All that fun stuff. Vitamins and water. Exercise. Well thats waiting until monday. Says Mark. Monday-Friday. Every night at 830p. Cardio everyday. Weight lifting M/W/F.

Goal: Cristel 10+ lbs loss, Mark 15+ lbs loss. That's doable.

Can I be (Un)Realistic for a Minute?

I made goals today/yesterday. And I am going to do it. Yes, I know I have said that before. But I like to think that I mean it this time. Seriously.

I am doing this mostly for myself. Mostly to flaunt my features. Some to make certain someones jealous (I have a few vindictive bones, ONLY A FEW!) I want to prove to myself that I can do it. And I like the attention. Not gonna lie here, it's my damn blog. In all seriousness, my closest friends, those special few, know that I love  attention. Which is both good and bad. I'm trying to word this sentence without being as insensitive and shallow as I can be sometimes....Alright, next topic!

Goals:
Current Weight: 161lbs
End of June Weight: 150lbs
Weight by Otakon: 140lbs
Weight by Sept 15th: 124lbs (This number is subject to change obviously if I feel amazing at 130 or 140)

BodyFat:
Current: 30+%, A Guess? Borderline Obese?
Goal: 22% (Fitness Level)

Chest:
Current: 44"
Goal: 36"

I am adding my BodyBuilding profile in the side bar with all the other ones. This one you don't need an account to access. I'll add it to my list of things to update weekly and such.

What I am going to do? Take pictures. Pictures Motivate me. And I am Narcissistic enough to LOVE staring at Myself. And why not?

I will follow 3 main Rules:
1. Eat Enough Calories to cause a Weight Loss (Approx. 1300/day). If I plan on eating shitty food I will run cardio that day to balance out the deficit. Since I loathe running this should motivate me some.

2. Eat 1g protein per 1lb of Lean Body Mass. 113lbs of Lean Body Mass = 113g of Protein

3. Lift Big- 3 days a Week. Which is going to get fun starting in June with 3 jobs.
Deadlift: Current- 136lbs   Goal: 226lbs
Bent Over Row: Current- 102lbs  Goal: 181lbs
Overhead Press: Current- 74lbs    Goal: 152lbs
Bench: Current- 125lbs    Goal: 203lbs
Squat: Current- 124lbs    Goal: 226lbs

I will also Sleep at least 7-8 hours day when possible. Make healthier food choices and keep being awesome. Sounds easy right?

Can't wait to see everyone in July!
<3 Cris

8lbs Down in 2 Months!

General Update for May

Work: Well my fulltime job. What can I say. I love it. I just hate the people I have to deal with? The people who create so much unnecessary stress. The backstabbing two faced assholes who can't come to you and tell you they have a problem. They tell someone else and somewhere down the grapevine it comes back to you. Thanks. Ill be leaving there As soon as possible. Im basically there until I get my vacation time (end of june) and possibly until Otakon (end of July). Im projecting my last week will be in October.

My Massage Job: Making decent money. I've decided Im not going to talk about myself there. I am going for the go there, go to work, go home strategy. Hopefully drama will keep at bay! But I love it mostly. Some clients are absolutely jerks (I toned that down). If they want deep tissue, they should sign up for deep tissue. I am not deep tissue certified. Ergo, I can hurt myself trying to give to the pressure you want. And thanks. Now I HAVE to see my therapist to look at my hands. But then the rest of the customers, I love you. You are all very generous people who fill my hours with happiness and satisfaction. You are the reason I want to massage people. Thank you. I also appreciate the awesome tips you leave me, you are too kind.

3rd Job! Oh snap! Every Wednesday starting in June I will be doing Corporate Massage for a Gaming Company. How exciting! Ive already got 3 clients signed up! AWESOME. Im not charging too much, but thats money that I didnt have before and the potential to get clients from this is pretty good.

Weight Loss: Ive been hovering around 161.6lbs the last few days. Which I am pretty ok with. That's almost 10lbs. And I feel great. I have still been eating fairly healthy although I could always eat better. I am still doing meal replacement shakes. In fact, I should probably look into ordering more soon, or switch over to Mark's vanilla flavored shake. Oh well.

Back in the Ring

So I'm returning to the ring! Round 2! Ding!

So much has happened in the last couple of weeks. Besides Mark and I going out way too much for dinner and not keeping the groceries at home properly stocked, We aren't doing too badly. We've been going to the gym roughly 3 times a week and I haven't been binge-ing or snacking as bad as I used too.

I recently weighed in at 161.4lbs. Which had me pretty excited. I know I kinda tricked myself by weighing in at a different time of the day where I am pretty certain that I weigh the least. Meh. I can accept that for the temporary boost of confidence. I've been sticking to my shakes in the early morning, a small meal a few hours after, lunch if I am hungry, a snack or two when I get home (two if I didn't eat lunch, my new favorites are 100 calorie popcorn and trail mix (dark chocolate chips, peanuts and raisins), dinner which isn't the healthiest most of the time but sometimes it is! (Quinoa and veggies or velveeta chicken and broccoli).

I need to incorporate more protein into my diet to increase my muscle mass. I have unrealistic goals when it comes to my muscle goals. But I can dream. Just because I want to be able to support my own weight with my arms....pfft. I'll do it one day.

I start my new job in a few days. It's gonna kick my ass. But I've worked 3 jobs at once before. I can do this. Even though I'm already conspiring to take on more shifts or hours. I want to give myself to the end of the month before I make any hasty decisions. I will be working Thursday 3-8, Friday 1-6 and Saturday 8-1 which I was informed were great shifts. I only work 4 hours of those shifts. I have 2 massages then an hour break then another 2 massages. That's approximately $310 every 2 weeks. And if I get $5 in tips each massage that's $120 every 2 weeks. So maybe an extra $860 a month(more with bigger tips!)? I really hope so. We have been in debt for so long. It'll be a relief. There are so many things we have given up to have a bearable lifestyle. Mark's car will be paid off this month as well. That's an extra $360 too. Fingers crossed.

Ok back to that job. 1lb is roughly 3,500 calories. If I burn 250 calories a massage, I would be burning roughly 1000 calories a day. After those 3 days I would be at 3000 calories. Working at the gym 2-3 days a week would burn an extra 1500 calories all together maybe?? I've been cutting my calories down a bit mainly avoiding fats and unnecessary sugars. So I've cut about 1200 calories a week in food. So that's 5700 calories burned/saved. So hopefully that will help me lose 2 lbs a week.A bit much but I'm ready for the challenge. Of course not I'll have to eat more food to keep my energy up for massage. I got this.

If I can survive cutting my hours at the full-time job to 30 plus the 15 hours I'm at my massage job and my (lack of) social life isn't suffering horribly and I can still find time to myself and for house-cleaning then I would eventually like to take longer hours massaging.

I also might have a corporate massage job in the future! That could potentially bring another $500 a month and that's only doing it once a week for a few hours. I am looking forward to not working a full-time job. No more retail, no talking asshole douchey people who want to ruin my day/life because they are fucking retarded morons.

Random Side Notes:
Recently I've found myself fighting with my OCD. Mainly with doors and certain thoughts. I have to check the door every night and sometimes I can bring myself to let Mark do it but only with great stress and anxiety. He assures me it's locked but my mind won't accept it. When I leave the house I jingled the door handle at least twice while pushing it. My car doors must all be checked including the trunk before I'll leave it. My thoughts tend to be the worst. But rarely. But of the worst kind. Once a thought is in my head I immediately obsess about it. It will eat away at my brain all day and the moment I escape it, it finds me with a vengeance. Usually about certain books that I become fond of, movies I particularly enjoy, business prospects and people I hold close to me dying. The feelings about people are the most traumatizing because they hit my heart straight on and involve me sobbing for hours. Silly as it seems and as smart as I am I can't seem to rationalize these feelings. Currently it's about a certain book(s) that Ive read. And it's terribly embarrassing to admit. Im consumed. Horribly obsessive. And it's interfering with my life. Hopefully it will pass soon. I find if I indulge it as much as possible I can sometimes grow tired and bored with it. But until then I'll struggle for a bit.

I'm also having strange thoughts about children. Like, I don't know if I want them or not. Mark is pretty certain he doesn't want children but he has no influence on this idea. I'll have children one day I think and although I may obsess about it whenever I get a baby kick, I just don't have the time for one. Plus I'm starting my second job and once we get out of debt. I don't want to go back into debt because of a kid that I will want to spoil. Make weird sense?

Falling Behind

So obviously I kinda fell of the wagon the last week or so. And unfortunately I will not be hitting my goal of 158lbs this month.

Setbacks: Only went to the gym 3 times this week. Which is still good. But we didn't really have good reasons not to go. We ate out A LOT. And it wasn't healthy. We are talking food covered in cheese, tons of fat and desserts. Granted I did have a minor surgery and I was a bit depressed and sore from it. But still. I shouldn't make too many excuses. As well as getting my license and becoming self absorbed in marketing, making my website and advertising. Yeah, Im awesome.

So my weight for last week and this week remain unchanged. Which is expected. Yesterdays workout pretty much kicked my butt.

But May is a new month and starting May 1st it will be 58 days until my 26th Birthday and My Goal date to be 145lbs. (The adjusted weight.)  Basically I need to kick some more ass and stop going out to eat multiple times a week. Plus my wallet is broke now...sigh.

Last Chance Workout

For those of you who watch Biggest Loser, Last Chance Workout is the big workout before the final weigh-in. Except mine is 10 days long. I'm going to attempt to workout EVERYDAY. Eat healthy and not go out to eat, with the exception of this Saturday Night for my Graduation.

This Week was pretty normal except we only worked out 4 days this week. Meh. I want to go to the gym. I've been cleaning a lot at home so I'm moving. I also had my minor surgery on Thursday so I wasn't in any mood to go to the gym.

I finally got my license approved, So I am now a Licensed Massage Therapist. That's right. I'm awesome. Graduation is this Saturday and I get to see my Massage School Family. And since I don't have any immediate Family in TX I have invited my closest Friends, Matt and Carol and James and  Jen.

My goal by the end of the Month is 158 lbs. Since I am currently sitting at about 162lbs, that's 4 lbs which is HUGE for 10 days. But I'm confident that if I continue to keep snacking to a minimum and make healthy decisions when it comes to my meals I should be able to make. If not, there's always next month.

April- 158lbs (-10)
May- 150lbs (-8)
June- 142lbs (-8)
July-  135 lbs (-7)

So 33lbs. Maybe more, maybe less. I just want a lower body fat percentage. Maybe closer to 20%?

Current Measurements:
Weight: 163
Waist: 39
Wrist: 7
Hip: 37
Forearm: 13
Chest: 35
Thigh: 23.5
Bust: 45
Neck:14

Another Week Gone By!

April 12th Official weigh-in: 163.2 lbs (-1.6lbs). Ill take it! That's 5lbs overall. Yes Im alittle behind my goal of 161 lbs for this week but the week of 19th/26th I only budgeted a 1 lb loss so I have sometime to catch up! If I remember tonight Ill take a picture of my shake!

Still having Meal Replacement Shakes for breakfast(530a) and Dinner(7p), I have about 2 meals (9a, 2p) and 3 snacks in between. Ive been drinking a TON of water. Especially today since my throat is swollen and it hurts if there isnt a near constant stream of ice water going down my pipe. Sigh. At night it becomes itchy and dry and I wake up in the morning gagging on yummyness. Yay.

Ive been super excited about getting my Massage License (Havent gotten it yet, I called and they said next week, so fingers crossed!) Im updating my regular blog about that right after this!

Ive been doing alot of lifting with work. Trying to build muscle and muscle strength. I started off with such low weights and struggled. But now Im like "Ugh this weight sucks, Im having trouble!" Next session add 5 lbs, "Ugh this is so heavy, so much trouble" and then the next week 5 more lbs "Ugh why is this so heavy! (Pumps out all 5 reps/5sets everytime) Im so AWESOME.

Progress: Barbell:   Row     Bench   Squat   Deadlift    ShoulderPress
                    4/6       45lbs   55lbs     65lbs
                    4/7                                70lbs    55lbs        45lbs
                    4/9       60lbs   65lbs     75lbs
                    4/11                               80lbs   65lbs        55lbs
                    4/13     65lbs   70lbs      85lbs

Notes: Squat is done on the Smith Machine (It holds the bar for you). And 45lbs in the Weight of the Bar itself. So 45lbs is with no added weight.


So here's to Hulking Up one day and Dominating the Tough Mudder. Also, pics incoming with my new Workout shorts! SOOO Excited about those, somehow guys shorts just wasnt cutting it!

Miss you guys <3

Training

So I think it's pretty hilarious that many women think that by lifting weights they are going to bulk up. Seriously. It's true though. Lifting a single heavy weight will magically give a girl so much testosterone that she will literally become the Hulk overnight. Ok I can dream. I guess Ill just have to rely on heavy lifting, reps and dedication like everyone else. Sigh.

 

Ive been going to the gym 4-5 days a week and this is the beginning of week 3. I would like to believe that I have lost 6lbs putting me at 162.2lbs but I dont want to jump the gun just yet. Ill post my official weight on the "Official Weigh In Day" on Thursday! So I gotta bust my butt in the mean time.

I hit an amazing milestone today! I was able to lift 136lbs of my own body weight with 28lbs assisted. Maybe Ill get Mark to video tape me when I can actually do a pull up. I really really want to get a pull up bar for the house. Maybe Ill put some money aside for that.

Ive been collecting jars and decided this huge pickle jar was going to be my Tough Mudder savings. Mark and I get weekly allowances and this is where my spare change goes. The Tough Mudder will require $110 and the deadline is May 31st. Which means I gotta save faster!!

 

 

Tough Mudder Savings!

 

 

 My Vibrams have been treating me well. They are pretty amazing shoes. Hiking in them was so much fun. They have excellent grip.

I ordered more MRS from Idealshape. $160 for 4 tubs of shakes.  That's 2 chocolate for me and 2 vanilla for Mark. They are also coming with 2 bottles of their 'Pills'. The pills have some healthy vitamins and fat burning extras plus a small dose of caffeine. They were free, so we will give them a try! The shakes make sure I eat throughout the day. I dont snack like a binge-r anymore (Ok there was this ONE day...ok TWO days...) But hey Im a work in progress. Still delicious and I look forward to it for breakfast before work and after my workout around 7p.

I WANT to go to the gym. Like, my body expects it. And I like going. I honestly want to go and run for 30-40 minutes and try for pull-ups and lift weights. It's awesome and makes me happy.

Mark and I started (Well he's been doing it 3 days longer than me) this 5x5x5 Routine. A days you do 5 reps and 5 sets of Barbell Squats, Row and Press. B Day you do 5x5 Deadlift, Squat and Shoulder Press. We do it 3 days a week, usually Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Giving our bodies a break in between. We run Friday-Wednesday-ish. Somehow getting 2 days off, like Thursdays.

 

Side note: Been getting plenty of sleep (7-8 hours) with an occasional 5 hour night. Had a second sleep paralysis attack this week. Not as upsetting but frustrating none the less.

Anyways I am writing a TON. I should leave some to write another day. Hope everyone is doing well.

<3

Adventures in Hiking!

You can click the pictures to open the album!

 So today will be a story told with pictures and words! Woah. So we arrived at St.Edward's Park and Trail and after a small trek we encountered WATER. 

<----Apparently this awkwardly placed video doesnt want me to move it anywhere. Le sigh. Enjoy it!

But it was no match for our Vibram's! They were amazing and we hiked and climbed rock easily. They grip really well.

                              

And Here is Mark crossing the small water with our balance stick!

This was pretty steep and really long.

And Mark hiking up treacherous steps of DOOM!

 A View from the Top!

Im pretty awesome.

Yes I am.

We are both Pretty Awesome.

Me in front of the Waterfalls

 They were too cool to not take pictures of.

Some rock formations Mark found in the water

Looking down from the hill

Wild Cactus!

The Water path

Some pretty Red flowers that  were everywhere!

Pretty little pink flowers.

Finishing up the trail

Clear sky! Awesome Day!

Post Hike Eating! Yum!

Mark sneaking pictures while Im Eating

Yum!

Lover Butt and His Sushi!

Mmmm sushi!

Overall about 2 Miles. Feel Great. No sunburn! 

And we only ate half the Sushi. Saving it for lunch tomorrow!

The End!

Basically...

Food:
I stick pretty closely to counting calories which isnt hard when Im only eating a few different things.

Breakfast(530a): Idealshape Meal Replacement Shake (1 scoop), PB2 Chocolate (2 scoops)
Snack(730a): Applesauce (Motts Strawberry Summer Harvest)
Mid Lunch(930a): Can of Soup (Progresso) or a sandwich on whole wheat
Lunch(between 11a-2p): Salad (Tuna salad: Tuna, mayo w/olive oil, whole wheat rotini, Italian salad: Italian dressing, cucumber, whole wheat rotini) or a sandwich or soup
Snack(1p-330p): Trail Mix- A spoon of chocolate chips, peanuts and raisins or Hard boiled Egg, Quinoa with Veggies (Corn and Peas, sometimes Lima beans)
Dinner(7p): Idealshape Meal Replacement Shake (1 scoop), PB2 Chocolate (2 scoops)
Snack: Pickles and Pickle Juice (Just because I like the juice, also vinegar is supposed aid in digestion and weight loss, or that might be apple cider vinegar)

Workout: 5 days a Week
4p-630p
40 minutes: On the Elliptical (To pass the boredom I watch an Episode of Criminal Minds, Because you can't only watch 30 minutes when they catch the bad guy in the last 10 min!)

50 minutes: Strength Training
Stomach Routine: Machine (Obliques), Ab slider thing, Planks and a few others (Everyday-ish)
Strength Routine: Bicep Curls, Shoulder Press, Triceps Dips, Abductor Machine, Pull Up Assist, Lat Pull Down and a few others (3x a Week, Sam says I should wait a day in between to give my muscles time to heal)

Sometimes I throw in Tennis, Rollerblading and other activities.

Calories Per Day: 1000-1400
Calories Burned: 400-600

And that's about it.

I lost count, what day is it? Day 9?

 Man, I am slacking! It's been almost a week! Let us catch up!

Day 6-Thurs-Off day. But I went to the Gym anyways to meet up with Sam the Trainer again. He showed me exactly what machines to use, what setting and what weight. Then we set reps and filled out a paper that I get to fill in each time I work out! Sweet!

Before the gym I had suggested to Mark that we TRY ON SOME VIBRAMS. And he was like, ok! (Which means I am getting some awesome Vibram five finger toe shoes!! Hells yeah!) And one hour and 15 pairs of shoes later, we were $230 more in debt but have new workout and trekking shoes. (Come on! They were much needed! I was running in vans/skater shoes, my feet were all kinds of messed up from that...really...)

Mark got grumpy at me because I drank Hard Cider and Had a few sips of soda. I also had a big bowl of pho. But it's our off day! Apparently I was wrong, we are just off of working out...lame.

Day 7- Friday Went to the Gym and did the usual. Elliptical 40 minutes. Then assisted Pull-ups, those are my main focus. So I was told to do those first. Then the rest of my strength routine.

I noticed my blood sugar dropped really low while on the elliptical. I finished and immediately stole 2 mini tootsie rolls from the front counter. Maybe that's why they are there. I didn't tell Mark. I just got tested for diabetes and Im in the clear but I still find my blood sugar dropping sometimes. Maybe I should eat more fruit or have some applesauce before working out (I was having peanuts, raisins and a few chocolate chips before working out.)

Day 8- Well today was good and bad. I had a pretty traumatizing Sleep Paralysis attack. Ive had them since I was really little. I usually get maybe 1 a month but sometimes they leave me alone for a few months. Sometimes its a few a month. It had been about 2 months. Im always on my back and I always have trouble breathing (which sends me into a panic attack sometimes). But I was lucid dreaming (another one of my awesome sleep disorders, hypnopompia) that I was having a paralysis attack (INCEPTION! This has happened many times), of course my arm is just close enough to Mark's face when I have the attack that somehow I am able to wiggle my fingers, and I am literally stab his nose, cheeks and eyes with my flicking fingers and he isnt waking up. (Im still lucid dreaming, you can NOT move, even a little during an attack) So now Im upset and crying because he wont wake up and wake me up from the episode. Finally the paralysis breaks and I start making horrible whimpering sounds that quickly wake Mark up and he knows exactly what just happened. He wraps his arms around me and shushes me telling me Im ok and to breath. But it takes me a few hours to get past it.

Mark and I at Sherwood.

Anyways, then we go to the Sherwood Festival! Yay! Steak on a stick, kettlecorn, beef jerky, a few bites of a pickle and a few bites of funnel cake! Nom nom nom! 3 gatorades and 4 bottles of water later. I knew 10 minutes after we left that I needed sunscreen, I avoided the sun like the plague all day but it found me. I somehow got the worse sunburn out of everyone. Damn pale skin...So now I can hardly move my arms. Good thinking wearing a corset....sigh. Chills and feverish and fatigued, my favorites! Overall, alright day.
Day 9- Sunday: My blood sugar dropped again while on the elliptical. Really bad. I had 2 more tootsie rolls and was almost instantly better. I struggled alot with finishing my reps, even at 30lbs. 3 sets of 15 reps is killing me. But I got this. Im not straining anything so I know Im ok for now. Sunburn made every shoulder move a pain but I pushed through it. Cold shower incoming!! Plus my strength is improving! I am almost out of Chocolate PB2! It's so good, I think I might switch to regular Peanut Butter for a little to get my calories up. I am still feeling shitty.

Yay Fat Arms!

Goofy grin.

Back. Obviously.

Some of my soon to be before pictures, I guess technically any picture I take will be considered before. Im planning on putting more pictures into my blog. I enjoy looking at pictures in blogs.


<3

Day 5!

So lots of updates! I mailed my Massage License Application out on Monday. Hopefully in 2 weeks I will have my License! Yay. Time to apply for jobs!

So day 2 and 4 were pretty rough. My muscles were very sore and I wasn't giving them a break. The meal replacement shakes (MRS) are yummy. Then I started adding PEANUT BUTTER. Yes please. They are super delicious now. It's like having a milkshake for breakfast and dinner. Ive been eating nice and healthily. And busting my ass at the gym. We have been logging 1.5 hours a day at the gym.

Day 3 thankfully, Mark suggested we play tennis. Which totally gave me a break.

Day 5. TODAY. Had a phantom alarm wake me up for work, drove to work only to be there an hour early somehow. Yay 5a! Don't know how that happened. So I napped in my car. I left work early because I signed up for an Abs and Back class. I was the only person that showed which meant I got 1 on 1 time with the trainer. He helped me a ton! In fact I have another 1 on 1 meeting with him tomorrow to discuss a training schedule. Awesome!

Mark and I decided to try PB2 which is powdered peanut butter with very little fat. I bought chocolate PB2 and Mark got the regular. I just mixed it in with my MRS and it's amazing!!

I like to think Ive lost 1lb but I cant tell. Mark says he's lost 6. Jerk.

Anyways, tomorrow is cheat day but Im not gonna cheat too badly because Saturday is the Sherwood Festival. Yay Renn Faires!

Day 1

Well morning started off alright. Had my Idealshape Chocolate meal replacement shake. I did 10oz of water,4 large ice cubes and 1 scoop. Tastes like chocolate milk! And since I knew my body/mind was gonna freak out about not eating food I also had a long stick of celery with pb and 15 raisins.

For my snack I had a slice of cheese and a string cheese (1pt weight watchers brand)

Lunch time came around and I was starving!! I think I should definitely drink more water after the shake. Especially since the directions say too. I also think drinking more water will keep me more full. Leftover, piece of Hake fish and baked squash, onions, carrots, red potatoes and some olive oil and spices.

Snack before workout. Strawberry applesauce with no sugar added.

Workout at the New Gym!! We worked out for an hour and a half. Tried 2 different elliptical machines (I hate cardio!!) Then I did alot of strength training. Which is kinda what I want. For the tough mudder I need to be able to do pullups. And I really want those thin, toned arms I used to have. Sigh. Plus some muscle mass would be nice.

Dinner. Sigh. We had our shakes. Of course Im still hungry. Im like a bottomless pit here. And we are invited out to Dave and Busters restaurant and arcade. So Imk like Ill just get an appetizer. Then Im like cheeseburger....So Mark and I both got burgers and fries. Sigh. Matt tried to shame us but I didnt really feel guilty. He was eating worse than us when we started working out and eating more healthy the last 2 WEEKS. Plus since weekends are our days off of the shake, I will continue eating very healthily this weekend instead of cheating.

Of course what I really need is cardio. Fuck cardio. So boring. Maybe Ill put TV shows on my phone and start watching those. I need new headphones though. And running shoes. And a new sports bra. And work out clothes...and money....

I told Mark if I lose 5 lbs and we stick with the gym for 2 weeks I was gonna buy a new sports bra. Of course he doesn't know they're like $40 or something ridiculous like that.

Anyways, day 2 is tonight. I got this.

Setting Up Mini-Goals in the side bar. Check 'em out.

Slacking a bit....

So Ive been slacking a bit on the working out and eating healthy the last few days. Like no exercise and dessert everyday. Damn emotions and stress. But after tonight I am back on track!

I finally passed my Massage Licensing Exam. Which was creating an untold amount of stress both emotionally and financially. I spent about $450 on that test (well $200 was from Mom, Thanks Mom!!) and studied my ass off for months. Then I was disgustingly sick this morning from my nerves. I wasn't nervous but my mind was telling my body something big was happening this morning. I cried in the bathroom when I left the testing room. So relieved.

I mean now I can finally move on. I can start my career. I can live my life. One year of 1 to no days off a week. Hours and hours studying, giving massages with no pay or tips, hours in the clinic. Phew. I am Awesome.

So two other big things happened today. 1. We (Matt and I) signed up for Planet Fitness. Yay. and 2. Our Ideal Shape Meal Replacement Shakes came in. Woot woot.

1. Planet Fitness, 24 hour Gym. Both MATT and I got Black Cards for $20/month which mean we both get to bring a friend for free. Which is why Mark didnt sign up. He wont go alone so he will go with either of us. FINALLY. Ive been trying to join a gym for a month now! Well hopefully it's not a waste. If anything there's free tanning and massage beds.

2. Ideal Shape. Now I have done MRSs before and I only found one I actually liked and that was GNC's Leanshake. Idealshake has appetite suppressants which is mainly what I need. As well as comsuming less calories on a daily basis. Mark and I will be taking it twice a day, breakfast and dinner and not on the weekends (At least that's the plan so far). Breakfast shake (usually mixed with fruit), snack (fruit usually, maybe tuna or a hard boiled egg, etc) Lunch (We have lean sandwiches on whole wheat, tuna, chicken salad, soup, etc) Snack (Veggie? Tuna?), Dinner Shake with Veggies. Evening snack, something small and easily digestible.

Well thats the plan. 0 pounds down. 30 to go! Lets do this!

<3

Oh Motivation! How I hate you not being in my life...

So, Thursdays and Wednesdays are my break days. Mainly because Mark has off those days and refuses to work out. Ok. Fine. So we worked all the other days excluding friday, I gave someone a massage that day. I consider that my workout.

Today is Friday. A workout day. So Im ready to go. In fact, I want to go sign up at a gym and use newer cleaner machines. Like Mark and I had discussed. Well he doesnt want to make a decision yet. Well fuck. Then he decides he might be too tired to work out today. Well fuck. Then he decides that he isnt going to make the day up on one of his off days. REALLY? Ass. Sorry it just really pisses me off. I went and worked out today. So now Im pissed off, I leave the house disgruntled and come back 25 minutes later still pissed off and sweaty. I busted my ass. And my arms are weak.

So new topic. Carol took me to David's Bridal to try on dresses for her wedding. Ugh. I mean I asked her to. I told her let's go. And we did. As a larger girl, I dread clothes shopping. It wasn't so bad. Of course in 2009 for my wedding I was a size 18. 18. That is huge. And not good feeling at all. Two of Carol's bridesmaids, her sister and Hope are size 6. Fantastic. Her sister who just had a baby is probably about my size. Well I get the 18 and its too big, I cant even keep it up. I try 14 and 16. 14 is about 2-3 too small. And 16 is a little big. But I fit in 16's now. Thats kinda cool. See my chest is the size 18-20(Depending on fit). My waist is 16 and my hips would put me in a size 12. God damn those skinny bitches.

So I measured myself and Im gonna post a dress size Scale to give you all an idea.
Measure Cristel 14 12 10 8 6
Chest 44" 40" 38.5" 37" 36" 35"
Waist 37" 32" 30.5" 29" 28" 27"
Hips 40" 42.5" 41" 39.5" 38.5" 37.5"

Davids Bridal Dress. Will be in Mercury color. Same dress that Hope liked.

Well. I also made an inspiration board. There isnt much on it but it's got a nice start. Maybe I'll post a picture of it.

Thanks for being there for me Kevin. <3 You seem to have impeccable timing with your emails.

Working Out

So I took a break on Wednesday and Thursday. Since those are the days that Mark has off and the days he is breaking from.

Tuesday Mark and I went to the gym for a little. Yesterday was the start of Mark's exercise everyday after work regime. Both Matt and Mark agreed to start doing it. As well as starting protein shakes. Apparently Matt is big into those now, Matt is more of the diet diet diet kind of guy, and expects results without much exercise. Mark on the other hand is all exercise exercise and very little diet changes, also expects the same thing.

So I ran on the treadmill for 12 minutes and made it to 1 mile. I alternated between 3.0 mph, then 4, then 3, then 5, then 3, then 6, and so on until I did my last .15 mile at 8mph. And that was tough. But I was running so fast that it didn't take long. I surprised myself when I ran at 5mph, the 6mph and then 7mph without dying. At 5 and 6 I thought it was cake. 7 left me pretty winded.

I also did some bicep and chest stuff. Now my pecs hurt alot. I unfortunately was not able to do any lat work which pissed me off. Matts gym has no lat machine....sigh. So today we are going to our gym. Hopefully no one is there.

Still sticking to the diet for the most part, I am eating less sugar, no soda, ice cream or chocolate.

This week starts the no bread no high sugar part of my diet. Which is going to be bent a bit, because we bought pizza for a dinner and sloppy joes. Damnit. I just wont make any sandwiches.

Havent lost any weight yet. And Im not expecting to lose it just yet. Plus i plan on putting a lot of muscle on so weight wont be a reliable form of measurement.

Here's to another week of working out!

Still Sore!

Day 3:

I ate pretty well today!
Peanut butter and strawberry jam on 2 slices of whole wheat toast
Banana
Large piece of Salmon and Garlic Butter Rice
1 Slice Whole Wheat bread, slice of cheese, mustard, 2 slices of turkey
Dinner could have been better: Panda Express- Steamed White Rice, pepper chicken, honey walnut glazed shrimp

Drank Lots of Water Today!

Spent a good 20 minutes on the Veloway today. Bought some wrist guards. I'll have to invest in a helmet. 3 miles in 22 minutes going 8 mph! It was rough, alot of inclines and a few down small hills. Didn't fall. I still got it!

Then I gave Matt a 75 minute massage. I think the massage helped me more than it did Matt. I feel like I got a good workout and stretched some sore muscles.

I also cleaned a good portion of the living room, kitchen, bedroom and bathroom aka the entire apartment.

No BodyRock-ing today. Maybe tomorrow. I have 2 massages tomorrow and a few more this week. That's alot of calories!

There's a storm coming....

Because I just posted an update 3 days in a ROW!

I also worked out and eat fairly healthy today!
Breakfast - 1 whole egg+ 2 egg whites + dash of milk+ ketchup= Scrambled Eggs
Snack- Cottage Cheese Snack
Lunch- 1.5 bowls of Kashi GoLean Crisp Toasted Berry Cereal w/1% Milk
No Snack :( Which was probably why I was starving for dinner. Working on not binging right now. Well I did have a spoonful of Strawberry Honey Greek Yogurt!
Dinner- Fist Size piece of Salmon w/Teryaki sauce and Butter Garlic Rice (The $1 kind)
Planned Snack- Banana and maybe some more yogurt

Work Out:
45 Minutes of Tennis with Mark
Made it All the Way across the monkey bars! And now my hands hurt pretty bad...
Started doing day 2 of BodyRockers but Im so sore from yesterday! My body hates me!
I stopped part way into it to make dinner. But I got a decent sweat and I had just played tennis a bunch so Im still good.

Tomorrow starts Day 1 of the New March Challenge on BodyRockers. Maybe I will start those challenges!

Also, my plan tomorrow, weather allowing, I will be roller blading at the Veloway! Basically a wheels only track in Austin. No runners allowed! Although I'm a bit nervous about not having wrist guards, maybe I'll check out a sports shop before heading over there. I do need my hands...

Anyways! I fucking rock. You do too.

My Body Hates my Face....

Ok so I decided that not only will I do the Tough Mudder recommended preparation, but I will also be starting the February 30 Day BodyRock Challenge. A few of my friends from school did this, not sure if they stuck with it. All three of the trainers are fucking sexy and lean as hell. I dont need to be like them, just more lean than I once was. I can do that right?

So Day 1: Pretest, Do these 8 exercises, each in 50 sec. Record your scores. Mod as needed. Sigh.

BodyRock Pretest 3/3/12 11:00a

Squat Jumps: 20 (16 normal, 4 mod- no jump)
Push Ups: 25 (3 pauses- 2 sec each)
Burpees- 12 (Mod No jump, no pushup)
High Knees- 117
Switch Lunge- 20 (Mod no jump)
Top Jumps- 70 (Mod- Single Leg lift)
Triceps Dips- 17 (Mod 90 degree angle)
Straight Abs- 30 (Mod Feet of ground)

And now my abs, neck, quads, triceps and glutes are out to get me. Time to go grocery shopping, assuming I make it to the car...

I remember back in high school, you had to do 200 crunches in 2 minutes to score 200 points. I ALWAYS had 200 points. So that's one of my goals. On Monday I'm going to a wheels only track, basically no runners allowed. Time to bust out the Roller Blades. Rollerblading burns 520 Calories an hour. Hello awesome!

Now if I can just get my eating under control. I may have eaten over an entire pizza, well, I might as well have.

Challenge: Eat an omelet every morning or something filling and delicious! Bring a snack to work and either plan on buying something healthy for lunch or bring a good filling lunch!

I also have a profile on SparkPeople because that site is hella motivational.

Day 1 of 30, COMPLETE!

March

Fri 2nd- Fri 9th: NO- Chocolate, Soda or Ice Cream

Fri 9th- Fri 16th: NO- Bread, High Sugar Products and Above Mentioned

Fri 16th- Fri 23rd: NO- Terribly processed foods, Alcohol and Above Mentioned

Fri 23rd- Fri 30th: NO- Eat as Healthy/Natural as Possible and Above Mentioned

March (Lose 1.5lbs/week)
Weigh-In Days
2nd- 168 lbs
9th- 166.5 lbs
16th- 165lbs lbs
23rd- 163.5 lbs
30th- 163 lbs

April (Lose 2lbs/week)
That's 8 lbs (154 lbs)

May (Lose 2lbs/week)
That's 8 lbs (146lbs)

June (Lose 2lbs/week)
That's 10lbs (136lbs)

My motivation: Complete the Tough Mudder 2012 in October!

I WILL DO THAT. It looks fun as hell. And I already have the start of a team. Mark might do it. Sal has already signed up! Waiting on Fred to respond!

Im all pumped up!

Alright. Seriously.

I suck at losing weight. I hate eating healthy. And I get a poor attitude when I have to use self control. Blarg. Fuck me.

Ill weigh in tomorrow in the AM. Im pretty sure I went up in weight. I cant get serious about this. Im hungry all the time. I eat shit for food sometimes. I dont exercise control.

But I have been eating less calories, Mark and I started working out like 1 time a week. My internship has me burning 250 calories a session. I have 9 this week and 11 next week. That's gotta count for something. My new favorite food is the Half Size Apple Chicken Pecan Salad from Wendys. And its amazing and only 330 calories with the pecans and raspberry vinaigrette.

Le sigh. If only I has energy and motivation. Which is exactly what I will have once I start losing weight...

I got this!

Alright. I am going to lose the weight I put on after I injured my back in 2005, I was 135lbs in High School. I'd like to encourage and support my fellow classmates to join me! Come on class of 2004!

Start Weight- 170lbs (1/13)
Current Weight- 167.6lbs
Each week or so I will add a healthy habit. This week's healthy habit, drink 2 cups of Green Tea each morning and work on having a healthy breakfast (that's next weeks).

I would like to lose 1.8lbs a week, which I know will be very difficult in a few weeks when my body starts adjusting. Hopefully by June 1st I will be very close to 135lbs!

Hopefully I will update this every Friday with my current weight. Next week, will be interesting with all of the food I will be eating and my lack of internship. Wish me luck! I got this!

Well Ive said it once or a Hundred Times....

I will lose this weight. Once again I have slipped up to 170lbs. I constantly fill my stomach. I feel sick all the time. Why can't I just stop eating? Why do I let my emotions control my appetite? Starting tonight. No ice cream, no milkshakes, less sugar, less white bread, white rice, white sugar. More water. More veggies. More loving myself.

I don't want to be the big girl anymore. I want to look pretty next to Carol and Hope at Carol's wedding. I want to not be the fat girl of all my friends. I don't want my back to hurt. I don't want a huge chest, big is fine. I don't want fat arms and thick thighs. I don't want a bulging stomach. I want to fit into clothes sold everywhere. Not just the big girl stores.

I want to continue loving myself. Because I AM awesome. I can be healthy and happy.

I can do this. For me.