Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Here we Are Again....

Feeling self conscious again. I mean I look fabulous. Right? Not trying to second guess myself but Im feeling a little....thick. Yeah. So I ran the Tough Mudder 2 weeks ago, Im fucking awesome. Let em just throw that out there. I really am. Thick and awesome. I couldn't post half the pictures because if I was squatting, bent over and even just standing my stomach stuck out like I was 6 months pregnant. Not terribly attractive. There were some other more flattering shots.

Yeah fuck the Everest Obstacle
Ok, so Mark went to the Doctors. His cholesterol and triglycerides arent horrible, but they arent good. So we both need to eat healthier, exercise more and lose fat. I know Ive said it 100 times.

So here we go again. Hopefully not yo-yoing again. Please?

So tonight we are going shopping, his Dr recommended shopping on the outside walls of the store, where the HEALTHY non processed foods are. Ok, sounds easy enough. I went to my fit food's website. And Im kinda stealing their ideas. Prepackage foods for meals, lots of veggies, less sugar, more flavors/spices and tons of tupperware. Right? Easy enough?

Ill take pictures and mention what all I put in the containers. Maybe. Well will need lunch/dinner and snacks, breakfast. All that fun stuff. Vitamins and water. Exercise. Well thats waiting until monday. Says Mark. Monday-Friday. Every night at 830p. Cardio everyday. Weight lifting M/W/F.

Goal: Cristel 10+ lbs loss, Mark 15+ lbs loss. That's doable.




Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Can I be (Un)Realistic for a Minute?

I made goals today/yesterday. And I am going to do it. Yes, I know I have said that before. But I like to think that I mean it this time. Seriously.

I am doing this mostly for myself. Mostly to flaunt my features. Some to make certain someones jealous (I have a few vindictive bones, ONLY A FEW!) I want to prove to myself that I can do it. And I like the attention. Not gonna lie here, it's my damn blog. In all seriousness, my closest friends, those special few, know that I love  attention. Which is both good and bad. I'm trying to word this sentence without being as insensitive and shallow as I can be sometimes....Alright, next topic!

Goals:
Current Weight: 161lbs
End of June Weight: 150lbs
Weight by Otakon: 140lbs
Weight by Sept 15th: 124lbs (This number is subject to change obviously if I feel amazing at 130 or 140)

BodyFat:
Current: 30+%, A Guess? Borderline Obese?
Goal: 22% (Fitness Level)

Chest:
Current: 44"
Goal: 36"

I am adding my BodyBuilding profile in the side bar with all the other ones. This one you don't need an account to access. I'll add it to my list of things to update weekly and such.

What I am going to do? Take pictures. Pictures Motivate me. And I am Narcissistic enough to LOVE staring at Myself. And why not?

I will follow 3 main Rules:
1. Eat Enough Calories to cause a Weight Loss (Approx. 1300/day). If I plan on eating shitty food I will run cardio that day to balance out the deficit. Since I loathe running this should motivate me some.

2. Eat 1g protein per 1lb of Lean Body Mass. 113lbs of Lean Body Mass = 113g of Protein

3. Lift Big- 3 days a Week. Which is going to get fun starting in June with 3 jobs.
Deadlift: Current- 136lbs   Goal: 226lbs
Bent Over Row: Current- 102lbs  Goal: 181lbs
Overhead Press: Current- 74lbs    Goal: 152lbs
Bench: Current- 125lbs    Goal: 203lbs
Squat: Current- 124lbs    Goal: 226lbs

I will also Sleep at least 7-8 hours day when possible. Make healthier food choices and keep being awesome. Sounds easy right?

Can't wait to see everyone in July!
<3 Cris

8lbs Down in 2 Months!

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

General Update for May

Work: Well my fulltime job. What can I say. I love it. I just hate the people I have to deal with? The people who create so much unnecessary stress. The backstabbing two faced assholes who can't come to you and tell you they have a problem. They tell someone else and somewhere down the grapevine it comes back to you. Thanks. Ill be leaving there As soon as possible. Im basically there until I get my vacation time (end of june) and possibly until Otakon (end of July). Im projecting my last week will be in October.

My Massage Job: Making decent money. I've decided Im not going to talk about myself there. I am going for the go there, go to work, go home strategy. Hopefully drama will keep at bay! But I love it mostly. Some clients are absolutely jerks (I toned that down). If they want deep tissue, they should sign up for deep tissue. I am not deep tissue certified. Ergo, I can hurt myself trying to give to the pressure you want. And thanks. Now I HAVE to see my therapist to look at my hands. But then the rest of the customers, I love you. You are all very generous people who fill my hours with happiness and satisfaction. You are the reason I want to massage people. Thank you. I also appreciate the awesome tips you leave me, you are too kind.

3rd Job! Oh snap! Every Wednesday starting in June I will be doing Corporate Massage for a Gaming Company. How exciting! Ive already got 3 clients signed up! AWESOME. Im not charging too much, but thats money that I didnt have before and the potential to get clients from this is pretty good.

Weight Loss: Ive been hovering around 161.6lbs the last few days. Which I am pretty ok with. That's almost 10lbs. And I feel great. I have still been eating fairly healthy although I could always eat better. I am still doing meal replacement shakes. In fact, I should probably look into ordering more soon, or switch over to Mark's vanilla flavored shake. Oh well.

Monday, May 7, 2012

Back in the Ring

So I'm returning to the ring! Round 2! Ding!

So much has happened in the last couple of weeks. Besides Mark and I going out way too much for dinner and not keeping the groceries at home properly stocked, We aren't doing too badly. We've been going to the gym roughly 3 times a week and I haven't been binge-ing or snacking as bad as I used too.

I recently weighed in at 161.4lbs. Which had me pretty excited. I know I kinda tricked myself by weighing in at a different time of the day where I am pretty certain that I weigh the least. Meh. I can accept that for the temporary boost of confidence. I've been sticking to my shakes in the early morning, a small meal a few hours after, lunch if I am hungry, a snack or two when I get home (two if I didn't eat lunch, my new favorites are 100 calorie popcorn and trail mix (dark chocolate chips, peanuts and raisins), dinner which isn't the healthiest most of the time but sometimes it is! (Quinoa and veggies or velveeta chicken and broccoli).

I need to incorporate more protein into my diet to increase my muscle mass. I have unrealistic goals when it comes to my muscle goals. But I can dream. Just because I want to be able to support my own weight with my arms....pfft. I'll do it one day.

I start my new job in a few days. It's gonna kick my ass. But I've worked 3 jobs at once before. I can do this. Even though I'm already conspiring to take on more shifts or hours. I want to give myself to the end of the month before I make any hasty decisions. I will be working Thursday 3-8, Friday 1-6 and Saturday 8-1 which I was informed were great shifts. I only work 4 hours of those shifts. I have 2 massages then an hour break then another 2 massages. That's approximately $310 every 2 weeks. And if I get $5 in tips each massage that's $120 every 2 weeks. So maybe an extra $860 a month(more with bigger tips!)? I really hope so. We have been in debt for so long. It'll be a relief. There are so many things we have given up to have a bearable lifestyle. Mark's car will be paid off this month as well. That's an extra $360 too. Fingers crossed.

Ok back to that job. 1lb is roughly 3,500 calories. If I burn 250 calories a massage, I would be burning roughly 1000 calories a day. After those 3 days I would be at 3000 calories. Working at the gym 2-3 days a week would burn an extra 1500 calories all together maybe?? I've been cutting my calories down a bit mainly avoiding fats and unnecessary sugars. So I've cut about 1200 calories a week in food. So that's 5700 calories burned/saved. So hopefully that will help me lose 2 lbs a week.A bit much but I'm ready for the challenge. Of course not I'll have to eat more food to keep my energy up for massage. I got this.

If I can survive cutting my hours at the full-time job to 30 plus the 15 hours I'm at my massage job and my (lack of) social life isn't suffering horribly and I can still find time to myself and for house-cleaning then I would eventually like to take longer hours massaging.

I also might have a corporate massage job in the future! That could potentially bring another $500 a month and that's only doing it once a week for a few hours. I am looking forward to not working a full-time job. No more retail, no talking asshole douchey people who want to ruin my day/life because they are fucking retarded morons.

Random Side Notes:
Recently I've found myself fighting with my OCD. Mainly with doors and certain thoughts. I have to check the door every night and sometimes I can bring myself to let Mark do it but only with great stress and anxiety. He assures me it's locked but my mind won't accept it. When I leave the house I jingled the door handle at least twice while pushing it. My car doors must all be checked including the trunk before I'll leave it. My thoughts tend to be the worst. But rarely. But of the worst kind. Once a thought is in my head I immediately obsess about it. It will eat away at my brain all day and the moment I escape it, it finds me with a vengeance. Usually about certain books that I become fond of, movies I particularly enjoy, business prospects and people I hold close to me dying. The feelings about people are the most traumatizing because they hit my heart straight on and involve me sobbing for hours. Silly as it seems and as smart as I am I can't seem to rationalize these feelings. Currently it's about a certain book(s) that Ive read. And it's terribly embarrassing to admit. Im consumed. Horribly obsessive. And it's interfering with my life. Hopefully it will pass soon. I find if I indulge it as much as possible I can sometimes grow tired and bored with it. But until then I'll struggle for a bit.

I'm also having strange thoughts about children. Like, I don't know if I want them or not. Mark is pretty certain he doesn't want children but he has no influence on this idea. I'll have children one day I think and although I may obsess about it whenever I get a baby kick, I just don't have the time for one. Plus I'm starting my second job and once we get out of debt. I don't want to go back into debt because of a kid that I will want to spoil. Make weird sense?

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Falling Behind

So obviously I kinda fell of the wagon the last week or so. And unfortunately I will not be hitting my goal of 158lbs this month.

Setbacks: Only went to the gym 3 times this week. Which is still good. But we didn't really have good reasons not to go. We ate out A LOT. And it wasn't healthy. We are talking food covered in cheese, tons of fat and desserts. Granted I did have a minor surgery and I was a bit depressed and sore from it. But still. I shouldn't make too many excuses. As well as getting my license and becoming self absorbed in marketing, making my website and advertising. Yeah, Im awesome.

So my weight for last week and this week remain unchanged. Which is expected. Yesterdays workout pretty much kicked my butt.

But May is a new month and starting May 1st it will be 58 days until my 26th Birthday and My Goal date to be 145lbs. (The adjusted weight.)  Basically I need to kick some more ass and stop going out to eat multiple times a week. Plus my wallet is broke now...sigh.

Friday, April 20, 2012

Last Chance Workout

For those of you who watch Biggest Loser, Last Chance Workout is the big workout before the final weigh-in. Except mine is 10 days long. I'm going to attempt to workout EVERYDAY. Eat healthy and not go out to eat, with the exception of this Saturday Night for my Graduation.

This Week was pretty normal except we only worked out 4 days this week. Meh. I want to go to the gym. I've been cleaning a lot at home so I'm moving. I also had my minor surgery on Thursday so I wasn't in any mood to go to the gym.

I finally got my license approved, So I am now a Licensed Massage Therapist. That's right. I'm awesome. Graduation is this Saturday and I get to see my Massage School Family. And since I don't have any immediate Family in TX I have invited my closest Friends, Matt and Carol and James and  Jen.

My goal by the end of the Month is 158 lbs. Since I am currently sitting at about 162lbs, that's 4 lbs which is HUGE for 10 days. But I'm confident that if I continue to keep snacking to a minimum and make healthy decisions when it comes to my meals I should be able to make. If not, there's always next month.

April- 158lbs (-10)
May- 150lbs (-8)
June- 142lbs (-8)
July-  135 lbs (-7)

So 33lbs. Maybe more, maybe less. I just want a lower body fat percentage. Maybe closer to 20%?

Current Measurements:
Weight: 163
Waist: 39
Wrist: 7
Hip: 37
Forearm: 13
Chest: 35
Thigh: 23.5
Bust: 45
Neck:14

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Another Week Gone By!

April 12th Official weigh-in: 163.2 lbs (-1.6lbs). Ill take it! That's 5lbs overall. Yes Im alittle behind my goal of 161 lbs for this week but the week of 19th/26th I only budgeted a 1 lb loss so I have sometime to catch up! If I remember tonight Ill take a picture of my shake!

Still having Meal Replacement Shakes for breakfast(530a) and Dinner(7p), I have about 2 meals (9a, 2p) and 3 snacks in between. Ive been drinking a TON of water. Especially today since my throat is swollen and it hurts if there isnt a near constant stream of ice water going down my pipe. Sigh. At night it becomes itchy and dry and I wake up in the morning gagging on yummyness. Yay.

Ive been super excited about getting my Massage License (Havent gotten it yet, I called and they said next week, so fingers crossed!) Im updating my regular blog about that right after this!

Ive been doing alot of lifting with work. Trying to build muscle and muscle strength. I started off with such low weights and struggled. But now Im like "Ugh this weight sucks, Im having trouble!" Next session add 5 lbs, "Ugh this is so heavy, so much trouble" and then the next week 5 more lbs "Ugh why is this so heavy! (Pumps out all 5 reps/5sets everytime) Im so AWESOME.

Progress: Barbell:   Row     Bench   Squat   Deadlift    ShoulderPress
                    4/6       45lbs   55lbs     65lbs
                    4/7                                70lbs    55lbs        45lbs
                    4/9       60lbs   65lbs     75lbs
                    4/11                               80lbs   65lbs        55lbs
                    4/13     65lbs   70lbs      85lbs

Notes: Squat is done on the Smith Machine (It holds the bar for you). And 45lbs in the Weight of the Bar itself. So 45lbs is with no added weight.


So here's to Hulking Up one day and Dominating the Tough Mudder. Also, pics incoming with my new Workout shorts! SOOO Excited about those, somehow guys shorts just wasnt cutting it!

Miss you guys <3